~..a story of US..~
why did something like this have to happen., i never wanted it to be this way., i never expected something like this., all i want to be is with you., right by your side., to smile when u smile., to laugh wen u laugh., to cry when u cry., to love and be loved., i’ll tell u a story.,
there is this one day i cant forget., and i just dont know y., it happened 2 years ago or more., i was at home and i cant remember why., then my sister got home with her friends., there., i first saw this very beautiful girl., for some reasons which i dont know., she stood out best among them for me., just a glance made me think that she’s one of a kind., my feet suddenly moved on its own., and walked from where they are., sat on a corner., and stare on nowhere but on her., how she stood up., how she laughed., how she sat., how she smiled., everything about her from that very day., those., already painted on my mind., i was very glad that they came., honestly., i think., on that same day., my feelings for her was flicked., but i just didnt notice it., i never had dat same day., until that day., im not so good on remembering and memorizing dates., but i dont forget everything that happened., she was there on our shop., and when she and my sister is already going home., my two bestfriends stopped them near the door and talked to them., i went near them and just stared at her., we didnt really talked., there’s something inside me that gave me this feeling of shyness., something that stopped me from saying something and made me just stare at how she smiles., and just smile back at her whenever she give that smile to me., on that day., believe it or not., she became that girl that i’ve been thinking of., i was satisfied on just thinking and dreaming of her., coz i never believed that there could be something between us., until my very special day., which is my birthday., she told my sister to greet me a happy birthday for her., and i asked my sister for her number., to say thanks and show how much i appreciate it., but it didnt just end there., we texted all night until we fall asleep., and texted every day and every night that came after my birthday., then on that day., she conquered my heart., and without her even knowing., i already gave my heart to her., and made her my life.,then on may 24., we spent our first day alone., together., then on may 26., we exchanged iLoveYou’s., but its still not us., coz., though we know we love each other., we still want to make sure., that its real., and day after day., we felt that its real., i gave her matt on june 17 which is her birthday., then after that., on june 18., she told me., that she rili love me and that she wants to spend the rest of her life with me., but as time pass by., it felt like that love faded., it felt like., its not like what it is before., then on june 30., we agreed on a cool off., she told me., "i’ve just realized na parang may mali., minahal poh kita at naging masaya aq sau., wag m poh iciping hindi na kita mahal at na may mahal aqng iba., wala pogh sau ang mali., gs2 q lng poh tlga malaman kung bakit naging gn2 tau., kung bakit naging ganito aq sau.,"., i understand her risons., and im rili willing to wait., but i hope., she wont make me hold onto this rope of thorns for so long., coz it knows nothing but to make me bleed., but still., im holding onto it as tight as how much i dont want to lose her., and now., every night., every day., every hour., every minute., and every second of my life., all i do., all i wish., all i hope., all i ask and all i pray., is for that day., when she is ready to come back to me., the days that we will be sharing., with a better us., im just right here., waiting.,
~..iLoveYouSoMuch..18..~
-..xviii..-
July 7th, 2007 at 12:38 pm
** thing that you could reflect on. .ambal, try to read on all your blogs, try to read it closely, now you would realize na puro bitterness nakasulat. . try looking at things at the brightside. .there’s always one, like the moon’s darkside, it always has a brightside looking down to the earth, smiling and saying, “Wait for the morning, it would bring a new begging, as i end everyday.”